Hello everyone! How are we all doing with the quarantine situation? I’d love to hear from you folks! Feel free to sound-off/share/commiserate in the comments!

I have spent the last two weeks vacillating between deep anxiety and surprising calm. I am enormously worried for friends and family and from the general population at large. I feel so much concern and gratitude for all the people who are still going into work because they are essential services: this, of course, includes doctors and nurses and pharmacists and techs and janitors and cooks and other hospital support staff; it is also includes EMTs and grocery store workers and postal workers and truck drivers and food delivery drivers and fieldhands who are keeping farms (and thus our food supply) moving.

On a personal level, I have a cousin who is an EMT in Austin, TX and a very close friend who is a pharmacy tech at a hospital in Ohio, and I am very worried about both of them. They are the frontlines of this situation. They face the possibility of contamination every day and its terrifying.

I am also very worried about the financial fallout of this situation. I do not care about big corporations or the stock market or whatever else the death cult that calls itself the GOP is concerned about. I’m worried about normal people who are losing their jobs, or if not losing them outright, are at least losing income for weeks or months. I am worried about small businesses like family-owned restaurants and little boutiques and mom-and-pop grocery stores and indie bookshops who have lost business or been shut down completely. I am worried about artists who live commission to commission at the best of times. And debut authors whose first books are coming out right now and who may never get another book contract if sales are bad enough during this slowed down market.

And yet… personally, I’m doing ok. Pretty well, actually, all things considered. And I feel a bit guilty about that. My job is already part-time and inconsistent so I’m not doing any worse than I already was, and the job will still be there when things settle down. My mother, who is my financial support system, is working from home and her employer is working at reduced capacity, but otherwise she’s ok. We’re all staying home as much as humanly possible. No one I know personal has gotten sick (yet, fingers crossed). And I am, for the most part, enjoying all this sudden downtime. For which, again, I feel guilty.

I have read 2 novels, a novella, a graphic novel, and an audiobook. I have written quite a few blog posts/book reviews. I have sat comfortably in my front garden with the flowers. I have cuddled with my various cats. I have taken advantage of the Met Opera’s free streaming previews and have now seen Carmen, La Boheme, Das Rheingold, Die Walkure, and Siegfried for the first time ever! (And loved them!) And I have taught myself to cross-stitch. All while keeping up with laundry, and dishes, and dusting/sweeping, and cooking dinner.

I have always been an introvert who enjoys staying at home. As long as I have the internet and books, I’m good. The only things I really miss so far are: walking around at the park (which my mother and I usually do quite often), going to the movie theatre, and window-shopping at the mall or some such place.

And again, I feel guilty about mostly enjoying my self-isolation. Even though it in no way negates my anxiety, fear, and anger over the state of things: the people who are suffering physically or mentally or financially because of this; the people who have or are going to die because of this. I am absolutely blindingly-furious about the callous, evil, and incompetent responses from the federal government writ large. I have several rants about all of that, which I have shared with friends and on my facebook, but which I am (for the moment) going to avoid sharing here. I will try to avoid letting this blog devolve into moral and political ranting. But if this situation continues much longer in the directions that certain political figures have allowed it to, I may reverse that decision. We’ll see…

Anyway, please tell me how you all are doing? Good, bad, in between! No judgement here! Only empathy, understanding, and commiseration. I’m sending virtual (safe-distance!) hugs to you all! Be safe and smart!