Boldness Is All: Some Thoughts on Murderbot

Now that the first (but thankfully, not last) season of Apple TV’s Murderbot series has wrapped up, I thought it would be fun to chat about it for a bit. For those not in the know, the Murderbot TV show comes from showrunners Paul and Chris Weitz (who have directed and/produced many films and tv shows both together and separately) and stars Alexander Skarsgard in the title role. The show is adapted from the science fiction novella series, The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells. The first season specifically adapts the first installment in the series, All Systems Red.

Spoiler Warning: As I am speaking in broad terms about the whole season of Murderbot AND the book series to some degree, this is going to be very spoiler heavy. Continue at your own risk.

The series follows the self-named Murderbot, a construct (part organic, part tech) Security Unit (SecUnit) who comes from the dystopian-ish Corporation Rim, a series of aligned systems, worlds, and corporate entities that control much of the galaxy. In the Corporation Rim, SecUnits and other constructs are considered objects to be owned, not sentient beings with lives and rights. SecUnits are leased as equipment. If they do not obey orders and fulfill their contracts, they can be punished, erased, or dismantled. And they are controlled by Governor Modules built into their systems. But Murderbot has secretly hacked its Governor Module, meaning that it is no longer forced to follow orders. What does it do with this freedom? It keeps doing its job anyway, and spends its free time consuming media (television dramas, music, etc.). In the first book, All Systems Red, Murderbot is leased on a contract to a team of researchers on an alien planet. This research team, PresAux, comes from a non-corporate-aligned free world called Preservation Alliance that is, basically, a socialist democratic utopia. The group becomes entangled in a conspiracy of coporate espionage and murder, requiring Murderbot to save its human clients from death while trying to hide the fact that it is, in fact, a rogue unit. Shenanigans ensue, of course.

Murderbot in full armor in fight mode.

The novella series is hugely popular. I’ve been reading them almost since the beginning (I think I picked them up when the third book was a new release? But I don’t really remember). I love these books with all my heart (I keep shoving them at people, including my best friend, my mother, my brother, etc). And I was so ecstatic when Apple TV announced their adaptation. That’s not to say there wasn’t some worry. There always is when a beloved book is adapted for screen. The process does not always go well, and often distorts the original work out of all recognition. Still, I was hopeful because Apple TV has a good track record with their science fiction properties, giving them good budgets, good actors, good marketing, and usually at least a few seasons (unlike the other big streaming entity… cough Netlfix cough).

As the show’s release got closer and more news was revealed bit by bit, some fans were concerned about the choice to cast Alexander Skarsgard in the lead role. Murderbot is very explicitly non-gendered and uses it/its pronouns. Some felt that Skarsgard was too blatantly masculine for the role. I was particularly intrigued by the discussions on Reddit and elsewhere between fans arguing over whether Murderbot was canonically more masculine or feminine presenting in physical appearance. A number of fans professed that the always pictured it with more feminine features. This has fascinated me because, while Murderbot is genderless, or nonbinary, the cover art on the books give Murderbot (at least to my eyes) a masculine-leaning body type (which Martha Wells approved). And the characters around Murderbot describe it as tall and intimidating, which to me generally means at least nominally male (obviously women can be tall and intimidating too, but still). Additionally, the novellas are all written in first-person narration, from Murderbot’s perspective, and the audiobooks are narrated by Kevin R. Free. A masculine voice (which Martha Wells approved). I think, for better or worse, there is a common image in people’s minds that being nonbinary or non-gendered means, by its nature, being androgynous. But a person can look physically very masculine and still be nonbinary, or agender.

Murderbot without its helmet, watching its media feed.

Suffice to say, some fans were concerned.

Dr. Mensah (Noma Dumezweni) and Gurathin (David Dastmalchian)

I believe that Alexander Skarsgard allayed all those concerned by the end of the first episode of the series. And then blew them all out of the water in the subsequent episodes. All of the acting is excellent, of course. The basically unanimous opinion is that Noma Dumezweni as Ayda Mensah, and David Dastmalchian as Gurathin, were particularly amazing in their roles. But, perhaps unsurprisingly, the standout performance comes from Skarsgard, who absolutely knocked it out of the park. Skarsgard perfectly captures Murderbot’s awkwardness and social anxiety. One of the things that I love about the character in the books is Murderbot’s disdain for emotions, its constant insistence that it absolutely does not feel things like concern or caring or attachment for its soft, squishy human clients even as its actions prove the opposite. Skarsgard’s facial expressions, his use of his eyes in particular, is subtle and effective, wonderfully portraying Murderbot’s efforts to pretend it does not have emotions while actively displaying them.

In addition to the acting, I feel the design work really stands out. The design and look of the sets, the technology, the worlds, the alien animals, and so on was really phenomenal. It felt appropriately SF-ish and space-opera-y, but also solid and real and lived-in. The designers, writers, and so forth really paid attention to the fine detail work, and that often makes all the difference.

Socially anxious Murderbot facing the wall. (You and me both, Murderbot).

For the most part, I also feel the show captures the vibe of the books, which are SF adventure with a deeply comedic edge to them, due primarily to Murderbot’s dry, self-deprecating and sardonic first-person narration. The show tried to tread a careful line between action-adventure and comedy. While some complained about the voice-over narration, I personally feel that you could not have Murderbot without the voice-over narration. Basically the entire book series is nothing but voice-over narration, as Murderbot recounts its adventures to a log. And I felt the Skarsgard’s delivery of Murderbot’s commentary, all dry wit and heavy sarcasm, was absolutely spot-on.

That said, I do feel that the show’s efforts to balance the comedic tone was not always successful. At times, especially in the first half of the season, it sometimes felt too sitcom-y to me. The human researchers were just a bit too bumbling. A bit too silly. The gags and pratfalls were a bit too over-the-top. Even as the story turns more serious by the end, the human characters (particularly Ratthi, Pin-Lee, and Arada) were just a bit too cartoonishly naive. Mensah and Gurathin have some weight and complexity. The others, not so much. To be fair, the first book does not flesh them out in immense detail either. That happens slowly over several books. Still, in an effort to craft characters with minimal material to work from, the show leans far too heavily on the idea of Preservation Alliance as a space-hippie commune gag and makes the characters appear more like clueless idiot children, rather than naive but still perfectly competent professionals. These are, after all, all scientists and researchers (well, Pin-Lee is a lawyer, but same idea).

I had some other minor quibbles with some writing/directing choices in the show, but that was my one sort of major complaint. And, clearly, it wasn’t so damning an issue that I stopped watching. I did not love all the choices and changes made. I recognize that every book-to-screen adaptation makes changes. That is the nature of the game, and I am generally pretty good at separating the two. Some changes are necessary because of format differences, or because some things simply do not work as well on screen as they do in written form, and vice versa. Some changes happen to fill in details. After all, All Systems Red is a short novella. The world-building details are limited and strategically placed for maximum effect. But by its nature, a visual media requires far more detail. So the showrunners, writers, and designers have to make up a lot to fill in all the gaps. And for the most part, I think the Wietz Brothers, et al, did a phenomenal job of doing this. For instance, the addition of scenes from the in-universe Rise and Fall of Sanctuary Moon show was hilarious, glorious even (John Cho and Clark Gregg are having way too much fun in those scenes). But some changes just felt… odd and unnecessary. Not required by either the format or the narrative. For instance, the LeBeeBee character was strange and, to me vat least, really annoying (I recognize that quite a few people on the Murderbot Reddit that she was amusing). But again, these complaints are fairly minor, all things considered.

John Cho and Clark Gregg as the main characters of Sanctuary Moon

On the whole, I really enjoyed the series. It was fun and high-energy and entertaining, with some really great film work and some phenomenal acting. I was excited for the new episode every week, and I am ecstatic that it has been confirmed for a second season. I’ve watched every episode 2-3 times now. And I suspect a book series re-read is in order soon, at which point I will probably go through the season again with new eyes. And in the meantime, I am already enjoying the lively discussions in fandom spaces about what Paul and Chris Weitz will do with the second season. One thing I am particularly curious about is how they will address the fact that none of the PresAux team appear in books 2 and 3. Will they stay true to the books and portray Murderbot’s solo adventures? Or will they rework the material somehow so that they can keep the current cast of characters involved in some way. Given the love almost every fan has professed for Gurathin in particular, I honestly would not blame them if they did keep him around somehow. It’ll likely be a year or two before we’ll find out, but I can’t wait to see!

Every Loss A Blow

I believe I have mentioned at some point in the past that my mother and I rescue animals. Strays, fosters, and even two dogs literally on the slate to be euthanized for no other reason than because their owners surrendered them and the shelter had no room to take them in.

At the height of our rescue efforts, we’ve had living in our home six dogs and twelve cats at one time. Yes, the house is a zoo. I don’t always love it, but we do what we can.

One of the hardest parts about rescuing animals so consistently (besides the immense amount of daily work) is that sometimes we lose several in quick succession, a long string of losses, one right after the other. The average pet owner with one or two or even three pets usually has long breaks in between losses, but when you live with so many animals, the losses seem never to end. It’s been especially bad the last few years.

Mieko in 2016

In September 2019, We lost two of our cats, my mother’s beloved Mieko to cancer, and my girl, Bobbi very unexpected to a brain aneurysm, just a week apart from each other. We lost a dog, Lady, to cancer in late 2023 (she was one of the two we had rescued from euthanasia at the shelter in 2019, so at least we gave her a few more years than she would have had otherwise). In Spring 2024, we lost our sweet middle-aged cat, Freiya, to kidney failure. A few months later, in December 2024 (just before Christmas in fact), we lost our oldest cat, Grady. His loss we at least expected. He was not as old as some cats live, at 14, but he had thyroid problems and had been in slow decline for awhile, so we were somewhat prepared.

Eilonwy in 2022

Now, not even a year later, we’ve lost two more quickly. My youngest cat, my baby girl, Eilonwy, died very unexpectedly on May 26th. She’d eaten a piece of string that strangled her intestines. She had emergency surgery, but could not recover. She was only four years old. Her death was a blow I’m not sure I’ll recover from any time soon. And, just yesterday, we had to let our oldest dog go. Like Grady, this was not unexpected. Abbey was 15, or possibly 16 (a stray we rescued off the road, thus her name, a reference to the Beatles album, Abbey Road). She lost the use of her back legs a little over a week ago. The vet was trying some treatments to help mobility but they weren’t working. And on Thursday and Friday, she stopped eating. She was a very tired old lady, who lived a good long life, and she was ready to rest. On Saturday, we let her go.

Abbey in 2021

Still, knowing its coming never really helps that much. Especially not for my mom. Abbey was her dog primarily. They loved each other very much. While I am sad, my mom is inconsolable. I understand, of course. The one loss that still lingers the hardest for me was a long time ago now. My cat Sebastian, my love, my boy, who I had from six weeks old until his death one week shy of 18th birthday. Most of my life. He died in 2014, and it still aches like a new wound some days. Grief is strange like that.

We all take these losses hard. Some days I wonder how many more such blows we can handle, and we have so many more animals that we love and cherish and will one day lose. It is our duty as pet owners to care for our animals up to and through death, no matter how painful it is. And there are so many benefits from having a loving cat or dog in your life. Yet, part of me wonders if the pain becomes too much at some point, the losses too many. I sometimes think that as we lose more to illness or old age in the future, I might stop bringing new pets into the house. My heart is tired.

My boy, my first love, Sebastian

In Defense of Pixar’s Elio

The next Disney/Pixar movie, Elio, released on June 20th and by all accounts had dismal first weekend earnings. This can be attributed to several things, no doubt. For one, I’ve seen many complaints about the lack of marketing. I’ll be honest, I saw a decent amount of marketing for the movie, including internet ads and the trailer. But I suppose I’m not a good sample because I am chronically on the Disney+ app or watching reruns of Phineas and Ferb and The Owl House on the Disney Channel. In other words, I’m a massive Disney nerd and I always know about every single new release they have. On the other hand, apparently the average adult movie goer did not see much marketing and was barely aware what Elio was, let alone when it was releasing.

This has been a problem with a lot of media lately. Not just from Disney, though it is a major problem at Disney, which has seemed lately to be reluctant to market its Pixar releases. But its been a problem with a lot of recent productions, both film and television. I think, for instance, about a lot of Netflix releases that have come and gone almost without any notice at all. Netflix makes something, refuses to market it in the slightest, and then complains that it did not perform well. Almost as if they are trying to tank some titles.

Anyway, that is certainly a contributing factor. However, as SF author John Scalzi very effectively argued in a thread on BlueSky, this has often been the case for animated science fiction movies. Many excellent animated SF movies have underperformed in the box office through no fault of their own, for reasons I really cannot guess at.

So, for those who maybe weren’t aware this movie existed, or did not feel another underperforming Disney/Pixar movie is worth your time, let me just say: ELIO IS VERY GOOD, ACTUALLY.


I don’t always love what Disney has been doing lately, creatively or politically or economically. For instance, I’ve seen reports that Disney execs made significant last minute changes to Elio to remove a queer character. I hate that. But I’m not surprised by it. In the last few years, Disney has been backtracking the very LITTLE progress they had made in LGBTQ representation very quickly. I don’t like it, but I’m used to it. And while that frustrates me, I do not believe it takes away from the ways in which Elio was genuinely very good. It is beautifully animated, emotionally resonant, and just plain fun.

The basic premise is this: middle-schooler Elio’s parents have recently died (in an unspecified accident). Elio has gone to live with his aunt who works for the Air Force as a space debris analyst and hopes one day to join NASA. Elio is… an odd child, a quirky loner. His aunt feels overwhelmed and conflicted. He feels unwanted and alone. After sneaking into a museum exhibit about the Voyager Space Probe (narrating, to my delight, by Kate Mulgrew, Captain Janeway of the starship Voyager in Star Trek), Elio decides that aliens exist and will surely want him if no one else does. Thus launches his quest, aided by ham radio, enormous rock signals on the beach, and much mischief, to get himself abducted. To everyone’s shock, he succeeds! He makes contact with a group of alien ambassadors who mistake him for the leader of planet Earth. A series of misunderstandings, well-intentioned lies, and general shenanigans ensure. Elio makes friends, his aunt learns to appreciate his quirks, and several crises are averted.


Much like Lilo & Stitch (the original, not the abysmal live action), this movie is about the value of family, the importance of being yourself no matter the opposition, and learning not only to accept but to celebrate diversity, individuality, and general WEIRDNESS. It’s also about the wonder and potential of exploration and space flight, and the endless possibilities of life elsewhere. (It would also be amazing if the movie reignited interest in ham radio, as Contact a few decades ago, lol).

It was a delightful and joyful movie. I got uncomfortably emotional at parts (largely pertaining to wanting to go into space; see my review of Atmosphere for a similar discussion… In fact, the weird resonance between the two was unintentional and surprising). I really hope that people (particularly families) sit up and take notice before its too late.